Kandhar Anubhuthi – Verse 44 Day 44

thoosaa maNiyum thugilum punaivaaL
nEsaa murugaa ninadhu anbu aruLaal,
aasaa nigaLam thugaLaayina pin,
pEsaa anuboothi piRandhadhuvE

Vedaant: Hi Apurva—be honest. Do you ever feel like you’re just running in place? First you chase a better job, then a bigger house, then a nicer car. It never seems to end, right ?

Apurva: All the time, Vedaant! It feels like I’m constantly chasing “the next thing.” It’s exhausting. Does this verse offer an “off-switch”?

Vedaant: It does. Arunagirinathar uses a powerful term: “Aasaa Nigalam.” He calls desire a “shackle” or an iron chain. We think our desires make us free, but he says they actually bind us to a cycle of stress. But here’s the magic: when Muruga’s grace hits that chain, it becomes “Thukal”—it literally disintegrates into fine dust.

Apurva: Disintegrates into dust? That’s a bold claim. How do you just “turn off” desire like that?

Vedaant: You don’t “turn it off” with force. You outgrow it through a higher love. That’s why he addresses Muruga as the lover of Valli. Think about it: a Supreme God wandering in the woods for a simple tribal girl. That’s “Nesa” (Intense Love). When you start to feel even a fraction of that Divine love, your hunger for material validation just… snaps.

Apurva: I get it. It’s like when you fall in true love; suddenly, the expensive gifts don’t matter as much as the person. The higher emotion makes the lower greed irrelevant.

Vedaant: Exactly! And when those shackles turn to dust, you enter “Pesaa Anubhuthi.” Anubhuthi means realization, but Pesaa means “speechless.”

Apurva: “Speechless realization”? Why speechless?

Vedaant: Because the mind is the tool of lanugage, and the mind is full of desires. When desires vanish, the mind goes silent. In that silence, you don’t “think” about God; you experience God. You don’t say “Muruga is great” because there is no “you” left to say it. You are just part of that bliss.

Apurva: Whoa… that’s intense, Vedaant.

Vedaant: Yep..Yep.. Yep. Here is a Takeaway:

1. The Weight of Wanting: Desires are not wings; they are shackles. We struggle to break them with logic, but they dissolve effortlessly when exposed to the warmth of Divine Grace.
2. Silence is the Peak: Realization is not a lecture or a book; it is a “speechless experience.” When the “noise” of personal desire stops, the music of the Divine begins.

Apurva: That’s deep, Vedaant. Just thinking about my “desire shackles” falling apart makes me feel lighter already.

Vedaant: (Laughs) That’s the start of Anubhuthi. Keep that lightness with you. See you tomorrow for Verse 45!

Muruga Charanam!