Kandhar Anubhuthi – Verse 46 Day 46

karavaagiya kalvi uLaar kadai chendru,
iravaa vagai meyp poruL eeguvaiyO
kuravaa ! kumaraa ! kulisaayudha ! kun
jaravaa ! sivayOga dhayaaparanE

Vedaant: Hello Apurva, today’s verse deals with something we’ve all felt—the sting of losing our dignity while asking someone for help or information.

Apurva: Oh, I hate that feeling, Vedaant. When you go to someone who thinks they are superior because they know something you don’t, and they treat you poorly. Is that what Arunagirinathar is addressing?

Vedaant: Precisely. He uses the term “Karavaagiya kalviyulaar.” These are people who possess knowledge (Kalvi) but are “stingy” or “secretive” (Karavu) about it. He prays, “Please don’t make me go to their doorsteps and beg (iravaa vagai) for their scrapes of wisdom.”

Apurva: That’s a very dignified prayer. So instead of asking these arrogant experts, who does he turn to?

Vedaant: He asks Muruga directly for the “Meipporul”—the Ultimate Truth. He says, “Why should I beg from humans when You are right here?” He addresses Muruga as “Kulisayudha Kunjaravaa.”

Apurva: “Kulisayudha” ? What is that ? “Kunjaram” means elephant, right?  

Vedaant: It refers to Muruga as the consort of Deivayanai, who was raised by the celestial elephant Airavata. “Kulisayudha” refers to the Vajra weapon of Indra. He is basically saying, “You are the Lord of the Heavens, the supreme ‘Dhayabaran’ (Embodiment of Mercy). With a King like You as my Guide, why should I knock on the door steps of petty men?”

Apurva: I love that. It’s like saying, “I’d rather be a student of the Divine than a beggar at the door of the arrogant.”

Vedaant: Exactly! It’s a prayer for self-respect and spiritual independence. Takeaway:

1. Dignity in Devotion: A true devotee should never have to compromise their self-respect by begging from arrogant people. Seeking directly from the Divine preserves our inner dignity.
2. The Source of Truth: Why settle for the “filtered” and often biased knowledge of men when you can ask the “Dhayabaran” (Merciful One) for the unfiltered, undiluted truth.

Apurva: Got it, Vedaant! The lesson today is: “Don’t stand at the door of the arrogant; stand at the door of the Divine.”

Vedaant:  Exactly! That’s the only door where you are always welcomed with respect. See you tomorrow for Verse 47!

Muruga Charanam!